OT - Steve don't read (crappy attitude)

OT - Steve don't read (crappy attitude)

Post by starli » Mon, 08 Nov 2004 15:10:47



Okay I've been in an awful mood for several days.  I noticed it really today
and thought back to what has changed.  I ran out of my happy pills and
haven't picked them up at the pharmacy.  I'll do that tomorrow.

I was in a cruddy mood for many reason:  I didn't want to do the deposition
today; I was tired; I didn't want to go to the Pow-Wow but DH won't go
without me; I don't want to work at Dell; my head has been really killing me
and I had to cancel the shots yesterday; If I miss one day of training I
won't have a job; Trinkett is in heat and will get pregnant this one and
only time I hope; the sun was too bright; people were in a good mood; and
the list goes on and on.

I felt so overwhelmed and hurt, angry, mad (whatever) I just didn't want to
take another breath by this afternoon.  At that moment I wanted God to just
take me.  I wasn't even sure I'd make it through the gate I was so mean to
DH today.  I was in a stinking bad mood.  When we finally got to eat today I
told DH I wanted to get wasted.  I don't like getting drunk but I was
already in a bad mood so why not.  In reality I had a glass of wine which
was very good and got so tipsy on one glass that I was happy for a while.

So why did I tell you guys this?  Because I feel so much better.  Even
though I had a tough day I know someone, like our dear Rebekah, who is
having a worse day.  I'm grateful I can vent and even though you guys may
not know or understand I know that you are there for me.

BTW - This day ended very well even though I was really mean most of the
day.

That brings me to another point STEVE.  When you are in pain you just want
to have a pain free moment.  I didn't get that today but thanks to a loving
DH he made things all the more better by not even have my angry bad mood rub
off onto him.  I love him all the more because he knows I'm lashing out and
he lets it roll off his back and just loves me.

--
Starlia Klopman
www.klopmanstudios.com

 
 
 

OT - Steve don't read (crappy attitude)

Post by Kalera Stratto » Mon, 08 Nov 2004 16:30:56


You have a damn good man. (ooooh, that's me using some of that profanity
our Steve gets so upset about... 'cause I'm not being a lady!)

Life can be really, really hard. Some people don't get that because they
don't have anything in their own lives that makes it real... so they
mock and dismiss it. Unfortunately, the people who mock and dismiss
other people's hardships usually also lack love and joy in their lives,
proving true once again my personal favorite truism:

Being who you are is it's own built in punishment or reward.

-Kalera
http://www.beadwife.com
http://www.snipurl.com/kebay

Quote:

> Okay I've been in an awful mood for several days.  I noticed it really today
> and thought back to what has changed.  I ran out of my happy pills and
> haven't picked them up at the pharmacy.  I'll do that tomorrow.

> I was in a cruddy mood for many reason:  I didn't want to do the deposition
> today; I was tired; I didn't want to go to the Pow-Wow but DH won't go
> without me; I don't want to work at Dell; my head has been really killing me
> and I had to cancel the shots yesterday; If I miss one day of training I
> won't have a job; Trinkett is in heat and will get pregnant this one and
> only time I hope; the sun was too bright; people were in a good mood; and
> the list goes on and on.

> I felt so overwhelmed and hurt, angry, mad (whatever) I just didn't want to
> take another breath by this afternoon.  At that moment I wanted God to just
> take me.  I wasn't even sure I'd make it through the gate I was so mean to
> DH today.  I was in a stinking bad mood.  When we finally got to eat today I
> told DH I wanted to get wasted.  I don't like getting drunk but I was
> already in a bad mood so why not.  In reality I had a glass of wine which
> was very good and got so tipsy on one glass that I was happy for a while.

> So why did I tell you guys this?  Because I feel so much better.  Even
> though I had a tough day I know someone, like our dear Rebekah, who is
> having a worse day.  I'm grateful I can vent and even though you guys may
> not know or understand I know that you are there for me.

> BTW - This day ended very well even though I was really mean most of the
> day.

> That brings me to another point STEVE.  When you are in pain you just want
> to have a pain free moment.  I didn't get that today but thanks to a loving
> DH he made things all the more better by not even have my angry bad mood rub
> off onto him.  I love him all the more because he knows I'm lashing out and
> he lets it roll off his back and just loves me.


 
 
 

OT - Steve don't read (crappy attitude)

Post by starli » Mon, 08 Nov 2004 16:35:22


I do have a good man and I'm so lucky to have him in my life.  I honestly
don't know how he puts up with me sometimes.  LOL  And I don't care what our
Steve thinks because you are a lady and a friend.  (raspberry towards Steve)

Quote:
> Life can be really, really hard. Some people don't get that because they
> don't have anything in their own lives that makes it real... so they mock
> and dismiss it. Unfortunately, the people who mock and dismiss other
> people's hardships usually also lack love and joy in their lives, proving
> true once again my personal favorite truism:

> Being who you are is it's own built in punishment or reward.

I think you hit the nail on the head.  Life sometimes just flat out sucks.
If you don't have a life how are you suppose to understand about the highs?
For instance DH being so understanding after me showing my ***all day
long.  Believe me, the attorneys on both sides had their hands full today.
 
 
 

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Post by Kandice Seebe » Mon, 08 Nov 2004 16:51:28


(((((((((Starlia)))))))))))
You have every right to a bad mood when you have a day like today.  I am
glad you have a great DH to help you through the tough times, honey.
I hope the physical stuff gets better soon, because when that gets better,
the rest will fall into place.  Much love!
--
Kandice Seeber
Air & Earth Designs
http://www.lampwork.net
Quote:
> Okay I've been in an awful mood for several days.  I noticed it really
> today and thought back to what has changed.  I ran out of my happy pills
> and haven't picked them up at the pharmacy.  I'll do that tomorrow.

> I was in a cruddy mood for many reason:  I didn't want to do the
> deposition today; I was tired; I didn't want to go to the Pow-Wow but DH
> won't go without me; I don't want to work at Dell; my head has been really
> killing me and I had to cancel the shots yesterday; If I miss one day of
> training I won't have a job; Trinkett is in heat and will get pregnant
> this one and only time I hope; the sun was too bright; people were in a
> good mood; and the list goes on and on.

> I felt so overwhelmed and hurt, angry, mad (whatever) I just didn't want
> to take another breath by this afternoon.  At that moment I wanted God to
> just take me.  I wasn't even sure I'd make it through the gate I was so
> mean to DH today.  I was in a stinking bad mood.  When we finally got to
> eat today I told DH I wanted to get wasted.  I don't like getting drunk
> but I was already in a bad mood so why not.  In reality I had a glass of
> wine which was very good and got so tipsy on one glass that I was happy
> for a while.

> So why did I tell you guys this?  Because I feel so much better.  Even
> though I had a tough day I know someone, like our dear Rebekah, who is
> having a worse day.  I'm grateful I can vent and even though you guys may
> not know or understand I know that you are there for me.

> BTW - This day ended very well even though I was really mean most of the
> day.

> That brings me to another point STEVE.  When you are in pain you just want
> to have a pain free moment.  I didn't get that today but thanks to a
> loving DH he made things all the more better by not even have my angry bad
> mood rub off onto him.  I love him all the more because he knows I'm
> lashing out and he lets it roll off his back and just loves me.

> --
> Starlia Klopman
> www.klopmanstudios.com

 
 
 

OT - Steve don't read (crappy attitude)

Post by starli » Mon, 08 Nov 2004 17:41:10


I'll let Dan see your post.  It will probably make him feel tons better.

Pain free moment...closing eyes...thinking about it....oh so nice.  If I
could have just been able to keep my appointment yesterday to have the mini
surgery I think things would have been so much better.  It will happen in
the near future...just gotta get through training.

--
Starlia Klopman
www.klopmanstudios.com


Quote:
> On Sun, 7 Nov 2004 1:10:47 -0500, starlia wrote

>> That brings me to another point STEVE.  When you are in pain you just
>> want
>> to have a pain free moment.

> I especially hate the curled in a ball part, just hoping for "five
> minutes, just let me have five minutes, so I can push back the pain
> and get it under control."

> Yeah, I know that the pushing back takes a lot of energy, but so does
> living with the pain.  It's hard for anyone who hasn't lived with
> constant severe pain that never goes away, never really lets up, and
> colors every decision, everything you wish you could do.  It's funny
> - people think you must be constantly buzzed by the pain meds, and
> that taking them is enjoyable, like taking recreational ***.  Nope,
> not even a little.  All the pain meds do is reduce the pain to the
> point where it's bearable.  Not skipping around, tra-la, tra-la, just
> bearable enough that you can think of something, anything besides how
> much you hurt.

> Constant pain is so different from intermittent pain, it's another
> experience entirely.  Every single thought is prefaced by the unsaid
> statement:  "will it make the pain worse if..."   Even silly things
> like taking a shower, picking up a coin off the floor, twisting to
> look out the window and see what is bothering Sophie.  I'm not asking
> to go bungee-jumping - I just want to put on a pair of socks without
> having to ask for help.

>> I didn't get that today but thanks to a loving
>> DH he made things all the more better by not even have my angry bad mood
>> rub
>> off onto him.  I love him all the more because he knows I'm lashing out
>> and
>> he lets it roll off his back and just loves me.

> Dan is so cool.  Please tell him that he has fans up here, even
> though we talk funny.  I'm glad he got some nice things and had fun
> at the pow-wow.

> And I hope that the pain lets up for you, and that you're feeling
> better by the time you read this.

> Kathy N-V

 
 
 

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Post by Beadbimb » Mon, 08 Nov 2004 20:14:52


Starlia, I hope you feel better today.  I'm glad you have Dan there to get
through these things with.

--
Jerri
www.bead***.com
"

 
 
 

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Post by Anna W » Mon, 08 Nov 2004 20:39:18


I'm sorry you had such a bad day. The Pow-Wow sounds like great
fun. :) I hope the attorneys don't have anything to do with the
Lemur bite!!!

Anna W. in Tx

Quote:
> For instance DH being so understanding after me showing my ***
> all day long.  Believe me, the attorneys on both sides had
> their hands full today.

 
 
 

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Post by starli » Tue, 09 Nov 2004 01:14:53


No the attorneys have nothing to do with the lemur bite.  I'm a material
witness in a case and it's becoming a real PITA.

--
Starlia Klopman
www.klopmanstudios.com



Quote:
> I'm sorry you had such a bad day. The Pow-Wow sounds like great fun. :) I
> hope the attorneys don't have anything to do with the Lemur bite!!!

> Anna W. in Tx

>> For instance DH being so understanding after me showing my ***all day
>> long.  Believe me, the attorneys on both sides had their hands full
>> today.

 
 
 

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Post by Dr. So » Tue, 09 Nov 2004 02:54:34


STARLIA!!
{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Starlia}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

You vent all you want.

Quote:
>I felt so overwhelmed and hurt, angry, mad (whatever) I just didn't want to
>take another breath by this afternoon.  At that moment I wanted God to just
>take me.  I wasn't even sure I'd make it through the gate I was so mean to
>DH today.  I was in a stinking bad mood.  When we finally got to eat today I
>told DH I wanted to get wasted.  I don't like getting drunk but I was
>already in a bad mood so why not.  In reality I had a glass of wine which
>was very good and got so tipsy on one glass that I was happy for a while.

~~
Sooz
The things that will destroy us are: politics without principle; pleasure
without conscience; wealth without work; knowledge without character; business
without morality; science without humanity, and worship without sacrifice. - M.
Ghandi
 
 
 

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Post by Dr. So » Tue, 09 Nov 2004 02:57:10


Quote:
>Pain free moment...closing eyes...thinking about it....oh so nice.

Huh?  I'm sorry, I don't understand.  What's a "pain free moment"?
~~
Sooz
The things that will destroy us are: politics without principle; pleasure
without conscience; wealth without work; knowledge without character; business
without morality; science without humanity, and worship without sacrifice. - M.
Ghandi
 
 
 

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Post by Kalera Stratto » Tue, 09 Nov 2004 05:15:50


{{{{{{{{{{{Starlia}}}}}}}}}}}

And for Steve: ( )*( )
-Kalera
http://www.FoundCollection.com/
http://www.FoundCollection.com/

Quote:

> I do have a good man and I'm so lucky to have him in my life.  I honestly
> don't know how he puts up with me sometimes.  LOL  And I don't care what our
> Steve thinks because you are a lady and a friend.  (raspberry towards Steve)
> I think you hit the nail on the head.  Life sometimes just flat out sucks.
> If you don't have a life how are you suppose to understand about the highs?
> For instance DH being so understanding after me showing my ***all day
> long.  Believe me, the attorneys on both sides had their hands full today.

 
 
 

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Post by Dr. So » Tue, 09 Nov 2004 06:17:01


Quote:
>And for Steve: ( )*( )

Haw haw haw!  Uh oh, you run the risk of being labeled (GASP) ESBC.
~~
Sooz
The things that will destroy us are: politics without principle; pleasure
without conscience; wealth without work; knowledge without character; business
without morality; science without humanity, and worship without sacrifice. - M.
Ghandi
 
 
 

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Post by Stephan » Tue, 09 Nov 2004 14:35:09


Oh my friend Sooz...........................

Quote:
>Huh?  I'm sorry, I don't understand.  What's a "pain free moment"?

.Stephanie.

Gotta Question?
Google: rec.craft.bead
http://tinyurl.com/5wm36

 
 
 

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Post by Kalera Stratto » Tue, 09 Nov 2004 15:44:26


Oh, no! And also, some unspecified artists might not think I'm a lady!

-Kalera
http://www.beadwife.com
http://www.snipurl.com/kebay

Quote:

>>And for Steve: ( )*( )

> Haw haw haw!  Uh oh, you run the risk of being labeled (GASP) ESBC.
> ~~
> Sooz
> The things that will destroy us are: politics without principle; pleasure
> without conscience; wealth without work; knowledge without character; business
> without morality; science without humanity, and worship without sacrifice. - M.
> Ghandi

 
 
 

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Post by Dr. So » Tue, 09 Nov 2004 15:50:01


Quote:
>Oh, no! And also, some unspecified artists might not think I'm a lady!

But the unverified artists here already know you're just my ***.
~~
Sooz
The things that will destroy us are: politics without principle; pleasure
without conscience; wealth without work; knowledge without character; business
without morality; science without humanity, and worship without sacrifice. - M.
Ghandi